My relationship

Or lack thereof.
I will start by explaining that Ricky and I got together in June of 09' and everything was great. We got a long well, we had similar interests, and great sex. lol :)
5 months after being together I found out I was pregnant, and at first we weren't sure what we were going to do. Ricky told me he wanted me to get an abortion. And at first that's what I was leaning towards because I was only 17 at the time and I knew I wasn't emotionally or financially ready for a child... But I just could not get an abortion. I couldn't harm my own child like that, it just felt wrong... The way I looked at it is, if it was meant to be, then it will be... And if it's not, I will have a miscarriage naturally.

During pregnancy, I spent all of my time alone at the house that Ricky mostly payed for. I was emotionally distraught because Ricky seemed to hate me, and never wanted to be around me. I understand that I was (and still am) very controlling... but it only made things worse when my boyfriend wouldn't spend any time with me at all.
Besides the grief between us, I had a beautiful and healthy pregnancy, and birth. Immediately Ricky took care of our daughter and helped me with everything. He even cried when she was born. :)
Then as time wore on.... It was suddenly a chore for him to play with/hold our newborn daughter... eventually when he came home from work, instead of being eager to hold Juliette... He was eager to go into the garage and ignore us for a few hours. Which was very difficult for me because I was going to school online at this point, and had very little time to do school work with no one to watch my daughter while I got some work done.
The following quarter I took my classes on campus, since the online thing so obviously didn't work out.
My dad watched Juliette while I was in class, and while I did my homework... this gave Ricky a lot more time to himself to work on his car or visit with his friends, or whatever else he wanted to do.
Everything was fine at this point, and we were semi-happy with each other.
Then we decided we wanted to move to Yelm, which is about an hour away from all of our friend back in Shelton. We thought that by making the move out here we would stop being so tempted to go out and party with our friends and etc.... But since we've lived out here I haven't been able to go to school because of financial aid complications. So I've sat out here on my ass bored since we moved here. I eagerly await Ricky's arrival most days because I really want a break from Juliette. He says  that I throw Juliette on him, and that makes him not want to play with her.... Sounds to me like an excuse to do other useless crap.

After being told many many times how worthless and annoying and controlling I am, I became fed up with Ricky, and after a big fight, we broke up. At this point I had been texting a  guy that really wanted to take me out to dinner, and after our fight I finally agreed to go out with him.
So I waited until Ricky was in bed with Juliette before I left... and when Ricky texted me and asked where the hell I was, I told him that I had walked to the movie theater and snuck in (since its very close to our house)
He immediately knew that was a lie and started bombarding me with texts and phone calls... all of which I ignored.
I finally went home, and found Ricky very angry and hurt.... We fought about it for a while and explained to each other why we feel the way we feel... But it seemed to be to no avail. I admitted that what I had done was wrong, and that I shouldn't have done it and that I regretted it.
We became happy again for about 2 weeks, we did activities together and spent time together as a family, and it was great!
But then yesterday when Ricky went outside and left his phone on the counter I decided to look at his phone... He had been getting a bunch of texts that day, he said he'd given his number to something and it was texting him a bunch of other people's numbers.... So i read what was on his phone, and I found texts back and forth between his ex girlfriend, and he had asked her out to dinner on Friday at 5:30.... This really made me mad... and I told him I wanted to sit down and talk like adults. He avoided me and completely ignored the fact that I was hurt and pissed... Eventually we sat down outside and talked about things... mostly it was me talking and him ignoring me. So when I said "Is this it, do you not want to try anymore?" he just ignored me/shrugged it off like he didn't care.
So then he left and walked away from me like he always does.... and I sat outside by myself for a while... This is when I started texting people on my phone... Mostly some of my close friends, but also 2 guys, one of which I've known for a long time, and the other was the guy that I went on the date with.
I explained to the guy that I'd been on the date with that it wasn't a good time for me, and that my boyfriend and I were too off and on for me to commit to anyone else.
And to be honest, I didn't tell him this... but i really feel no attraction toward him anyways.
The second guy I texted, mostly we talked about random things, but he also asked me to go out... Feeling down and depressed as I was, I accepted. To be honest, I didn't actually want to go on a date with him... but it made me feel better to know that I had someone else in line if Ricky was serious. I know that it's horrible for me to be reassured in that way.... but I was thinking irrationally because I was depressed, and angry.
So a while later Ricky and I came into the house and we were sitting on the bed together starting to be able to get along again... and then I got a text.. and Ricky picked up my phone...I snatched it away from him before he could read it... So then he forcefully took my phone from me and read some of the texts... then he came back up stairs where I was,  (probably because he couldn't figure my phone out lol)
And told me he wanted me to read him the texts... which i wouldn't do.
So he put Juliette to bed, and I went downstairs and hid my phone from him.
He then came downstairs and demanded to see my phone.. so i let him and he read all the texts, neglecting to look at the date of a majority of them.
He was then really pissed off because he thought that "every time we break up you run to one of your boys and meet up with them"
I have never met up with another guy (other then the date that I went on,) since we've been together.
Suddenly, after he found all of the texts, Ricky says that he wanted to try and make it work, and that we are supposed to be a family, and all this other sobby stuff.
So now, here we are... Juliette and I are at home alone as always.... while even though Ricky doesn't work today, he says that he's out looking for a job... is that really what he's doing, or did he reschedule his date with his ex for today?